"When Jesus says so!"

It's been over a week since I mailed our application to Taiwan. I have not heard anything yet, though they may have just gotten it. But I am getting nervous that maybe they will see that there are too many things against us (not childless, me too old, not Chinese,........)See I'm getting paranoid! I take that back....I AM a basketcase!!!!

Natalie just asked Jon where her brother was, that she wants her brother. Jon told her "When Jesus says so".

I pray that Jesus is just waiting for the perfect time. I don't think that I could bear to be wrong again. If we are turned down, I think that I will have to take that as a sign that we are not meant to have another child, even though we want one so badly.

The candles in the above photo were taken at a Buddhist Temple in Chongqing China when we were adopting Natalie. The two candles were placed there by Jon and I in thanksgiving for receiving Natalie into our family. I felt a very strong presence that day and was overjoyed when our daughter was blessed by the monks there. When I was looking for a symbol of prayer for this post, I was drawn to this photo. Since that was a very religious moment for me, I guess I was led to remember that experience now. Somehow, I find this picture very comforting.